pain

Yesterday I walked in the place, very dear to my heart, which I will soon have to leave forever. Moon was reflected in the opaque edge of melting ice...incredible beauty.  I had a moment of painful, momentary "facing a loss" happiness, I was happy even without you. I would not trade the opportunity to be in this endlessly holy place, even to the possibility to take your hand or even to kiss you.
Such a simple thing for someone and so incredible to me... I was so happy there even before I knew of your existence. I was leaving this place, burying my heart there. It is so unfair, so painful. Wipe my tears, have pity on me.