If I die and will go to Heaven (which is pretty doubtful), I will sit there by the river together with my perished cat Nicki.
He used to wait for me on the river bank, often hiding in the hollow of an old oak tree, and when I appeared, jumped out of the hollow to the branch. He was the most common gray tabby, forestry and homeless at the same time. I cared for and fed many cats, but he was my dearest one ever. Every evening I came back to feed him, to hug him, in winter I tried to warm him up. Sometimes he did not show up for days or even weeks and it was a great joy to see his gray little shadow racing back to our secret place.
My cat lived four years, and then he was killed, I don't know by whom and how. Sometimes such things happened there. In the anime 'Haibane Renmei', there is a touching episode when one of main heroines finds a skeleton of a bird, buries it and asks for forgiveness. I would also like to find his small grave and ask for his forgiveness for not having saved his fragile life and his little loving heart.
Unfortunately, that day there was no angel around.
He used to wait for me on the river bank, often hiding in the hollow of an old oak tree, and when I appeared, jumped out of the hollow to the branch. He was the most common gray tabby, forestry and homeless at the same time. I cared for and fed many cats, but he was my dearest one ever. Every evening I came back to feed him, to hug him, in winter I tried to warm him up. Sometimes he did not show up for days or even weeks and it was a great joy to see his gray little shadow racing back to our secret place.
My cat lived four years, and then he was killed, I don't know by whom and how. Sometimes such things happened there. In the anime 'Haibane Renmei', there is a touching episode when one of main heroines finds a skeleton of a bird, buries it and asks for forgiveness. I would also like to find his small grave and ask for his forgiveness for not having saved his fragile life and his little loving heart.
Unfortunately, that day there was no angel around.
Lostra, I'm sorry for that :(
ReplyDeleteYour cat is absolutely waiting for you in heaven. And there is a better place to live? I don't think so.
And never blame yourself for what happened, it wasn't your fault!
Sometimes important things are taken from us, but I believe (or want to) that one day they will return.
Take care, darling! Kisses.
Dear, Milla!
DeleteThank you very much for your kind words of support and encouragement! Four years have passed (it feels like an eternity) but my heart still hurts and that oak is now empty, as if dead. I took care about other cats and I have a feeling that they wish me well from heaven. My dear creatures ...
PS: My dear old dog is looking for your baby in heaven, in other words, he's safe and happy! :P
ReplyDeleteBe sure to send me a picture of your dog. Thank you very much once again, take care!
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DeleteWhen he was already wearing adult diapers hahhhhahahhahaha
Such a cute dog!
DeleteI have had a lot of pets during my life and when they die, of course I get sad, but then I thank them for the happy, warm and beautiful moments they shared with me.
ReplyDeleteAnimals, as people, are here for a reason and with a purpose..when they reached it, they have to leave us. That cat had an angel, it was you :)
Ohh, Fran!
DeleteThank you! I'm so touched by your words!