And about asking for help. My blog isn't for entertainment purposes, it is like a diary. Gofoundme doesn't work for Ukraine unfortunately. I have asked my relatives once in a lifetime to help me but they didn't help. When I had savings I had sessions with healers but they weren't professional enough for my cause. I don't know if I will ever be able to live a normal life again. And what normal life in Ukraine can be with the war and many other things after the horrendous 17 years due to my personal misery.