Forgive me...

Dream of you meant so much to me...
It was helping me to breathe, to exist, despite all the horror, pain, humiliation, despite of the fact that I lost everything I loved, became a victim, in spite of all the hell, bleeding wound inside of me...
I was imagining you being close to me and the pain was receding...
I saw myself being happy, joyous, free, and my heart was not aching with sorrow, it was full of pure light...
Now it is all over...
Forgive me, forgive me for dreaming of you...
You would never ease my pain and it was never your fault...
Farewell...
Forgive me...