So true, I have experienced and keep experiencing this myself and not sure if it's ever going to end.     #spiritual interference#                

 

Old good road      

We have the same snowy winter this year as in this movie🌨. I am fond of old soviet movies and I just love the calmness and happy vibes of those times. 

Alexi Laiho ♥.  His death is absolutely  heartbreaking.

I've  looked for Ten of Swords meaning, no wonder I feel so drawn to this card.

Ten Of Swords Keywords

UPRIGHT: Painful endings, deep wounds, betrayal, loss, crisis

REVERSED: Recovery, regeneration, resisting an inevitable end

Ten Of Swords Description

The Ten of Swords shows a man lying face down, apparently dead, with ten swords in his back. A red cape drapes over the lower half of his body as a sign of dignity as he leaves this world. While the dark sky is ominous, the sun is rising on the horizon, bringing a renewed sense of hope and opportunity. The calm sea in the background also brings solace, suggesting that even in times of darkness, there is a sense of peace and calm to be found.    https://www.biddytarot.com

 

 This picture of the tarot card resonates so much with me. I could spend years and years just starring at those trees and skies and clouds, while being   submerged in the water.  In my good times I did spend so many hours swimming in the river. So often I think to myself that I came  to this planet one more time just to see the trees again.

 

 Video 2017, I didn't realize what a blissful time it was 

I used to love winter nights with their  crystalline air, blue shades of the snow, and grandiose beauty of the wintery moon above. However nowadays despite all the  enchantment I feel deadly coldness of the icy catch in it.

 Kiyv before the  World War II.                                   I love those times, perhaps  I had a very happy past  life then :)