Trauma...       

A warmth in the heart.                                      It feels like I've  lost  my heart when I didn't help.                                 

The one who goes through pain, seeks loneliness.                                                              - Iris Murdoch. The good apprentice.

AINA - If I Can´t Have You

Grey feelings                                                       

Contemplating a tree bud covered by the snow, it's like a symbol of eternal life, continual spring, never-ending rebirth of life. A symbol of infinite existence under the skies. A symbol of Earth, of a breath of life on it.