That day I managed to release a lot of negative feelings and emotions and was able to be present and absorb this winter beauty and a little bit of the blue fading sky.    

Just to give you an idea on how my last crush looked like. :D :D  (Very approximately  :)

     It's so sad that I'm missing out on relationships with men as well as on many other things.

I look at the blue, pristine, predawn sky, boundless sleeping sky...

This year a birch tree has been my favorite tree. I guess I'm no longer a pine tree soul :)